Wiccan Whirlpool

You look forward to the headache.

This has been on its way for a bit and this time I didn’t catch it.  Right at this very moment I’m in the midst of a major depressive episode–one of those great things that lasts about 2 weeks and qualifies me for a diagnosis of Major Depression.  I have pills for this but I don’t really like the effects.  So far I’ve been generally so good about knowing when an episode is coming that I just start the meds when I know I need them and stop a while later–like a couple of months or so.  This time I missed it.

My sleep is all screwed up.  I’m starting to get that massive failure feeling.  I’m eating like an IDIOT.  I have no patience.  My blood pressure is up, probably in the 135-ish over 90-ish range, and I’m typically a 110/70 kinda girl.  This just can’t go on.  My health, family, and school work are starting to suffer.
Therefor, today I’m again medicated.  Bye bye libido!  Hello headache.  The good news is that tonight I’ll probably sleep and tomorrow I’ll already feel better.  In a couple of days the headaches will be gone and I bet my blood pressure will be down.

I simply must lose weight, and hopefully the serotonin adjustment will help with my eating.  By next week I want to feel well enough to get back to the gym and eat salads!

Depression sucks.